Excerpt from Conversations With God

Heres another excerpt from Conversations With God, an upcoming volume from my Truth Seekers Perspective Shifts series. Thank you for taking the time to share my faith journey with me as you engage with your own faith.... the wrestling, submitting, correction, and so much more. May you find hope for your own walk!

3-16-2007

Dear Father God,

Help me to accept things as they are and find enjoyment in today, in a healthy Christian way. Without being unaware of the many dangers that are lurking. I’m sorry I have been judgmental and haughty. I don’t like my bad actions and those of others around me. The cussing, perversion, the hurtful way we treat one another. A complete lack of self-respect. Help me to be more aware of my own wrongs and learn to correct them without trying to do Your job. I can do nothing without You! I also don’t want to be overly critical. I need Your help in accepting my own lack of perfection. My weaknesses. These are where I know I need You. In order to accept Your strength, I need to accept where I am weak without being judgmental and demeaning and punishing or downing myself. I don’t want to feel like I, Julie, am a complete loser anymore. I need You!

Please help me to see the good in me without comparing myself with others or thinking I’m better or worse than other people. Help me to accept me where I am at this moment and every moment that follows. The growth and the setbacks. And to always, in everything, run to You, in good AND bad, right AND wrong without feeling incapable of approaching You or asking for forgiveness and accepting it. I NEED YOU GOD!

Please don’t leave me. Please keep me always reminded that I need You. Don’t allow me to stray, please. I know I have choices to make in life. That’s what scares me. I don’t want to get back on track and get comfortable and mess up all over again! I need Your help to do Your will and to do what is right for my kids. I don’t want to cause them any more pain! Please HELP!!!

Thank You Jesus for making it possible to be connected to our Father and for paying for my wrongs. I’m sorry You suffered so badly because of me. I love You. Please help me to love unselfishly and to put others before me. I too often think of myself when I should be more mindful of people who don’t know You. And help me to put my kids needs before my own needs. They are still young and need my love and affection. Please help us.

Love Julie. Your will be done. In Jesus Name, Amen.